Another day, another milestone, 20 days, and tomorrow is 3 weeks!
I woke up this morning, with power! wehey! Something very odd happened in the night, I had a dream, very vivid, that I had a cigarette, most probably as I wrote this blog before I fell asleep! but it was actually more of a nightmare. I woke up feeling horrifically let down and disappointed in myself, before realising it was a dream and I has nothing to worry about. Very odd feeling though.
One guy at work who I had to go out with today was a smoker, and offered me a smoke in his car on the way, I thought the guy was a bit of a cunt to be honest in offering, as I had told him 2 or 3 times I had given up, he either was forgetful, or just wanted to be a cunt, but either way, I took great pleasure in rejecting the offer. I felt almost superior, which was good.
Work was average, Home was normal, no run tonight, couldn't be arsed! and tomorrow I am out with a friend and perhaps Sunday too, so pretty happy I have things to keep me occupied!
I have had few comments as of late, I hope all who were joining me haven't failed me, and are still reading and smoke free themselves?
Speak soon
Andy
hi
ReplyDeleteNo worries i'm still reading and smoke free as are the others too i hope.
I had similar dreams few times and had a strange feeling afterwards. I imagine that is the smoke daemon trying to demoralise and get me back to cigarettes with these tricks. It's because i'm still strong and he begins to despair realizing that it's for real and i'm in no way going to smoke again ^_^. I'm proud of my self that every time i had such dream as soon as i realized i lit a cigarette inadvertently i instantly destroyed it with a deep passion and almost in a ritual way. So i do fight in dreams too ^_^
Anyway keep posting 'cause it's a big help for all of us. I wish us all a beautiful smoke free day/week/month/year/life. We can do it ^_^