Day 10

Hey! Just about made it to post in time for day 10! I have 40 minutes left here in the UK. Not bad!

Okay two of the alleged "biggest relapse" points have been beaten by me today! I worked a whole day and didn’t smoke, and as I write this, I am moderately under the influence of a beer or perhaps 5! And I haven’t smoked!! Boy it was tough, to tell the truth if I had been presented with the opportunity, I may have failed, but I didn't! So, work was okay, as usual I had to deal with the incompetence and lack of common sense of others, which is almost part of my job (IT).  I did find certain times I missed having my normal smoke, but not to the point of flipping out, or biting anyone’s head off. When mentioning to people I am stopping, they are all instant experts on withdrawal, and have degrees in cessation. One person today told me I should perhaps use patches. On day 10!? I think not!! I just enjoy listening to others theory's like that now, knowing I won’t pay attention to it, but also chuckling at their lack of knowledge of how I feel. Maybe it was different for them, I don’t know!

Still, after work I had planned to see the old man (a rare occurrence, currently, and for all of my life) so went out and had a meal, followed by several beers in a bar. Normally on a night like that my dad will smoke a cigar while I have a Cig, tonight he didn’t, so Kudos to him for that, however his idea was if I really got desperately crazy at an ultimate last resort I should smoke a cigar and not take it back, again, this theory was acknowledged as the one above, I say acknowledged, perhaps disregarded is a better choice of wording!

One thing, I should have mentioned earlier, and could rectify through copy/paste, but am too tired/intoxicated to do so, was that something amazing happened at work today. Truly amazing.

I am still ill, and this is obvious through my voice, but two people said, and I quote "although you sound bad you look really really well". If I needed a lift, an incentive, a compliment to get me through the day; that was it. It made me feel fantastic, and I assume it is from the not smoking, as she implied I looked healthier than she had seen me. I was truly honoured, amazed and flattered, and feel that it has almost paid off! However, I’m worried after a lack of sleep and the beer tonight, I may not look like a shining beacon of health tomorrow...., we shall see!

Also My Dad said they say if you can stop any habit for 21 days you have conquered it, so that’s my next challenge, and I have just 11 days to reach that.

Tomorrows blog will be earlier, more sober and perhaps more detailed.

Once again guys, thanks for all your supportive comments, help and messages of support. To all of you also quitting with me, let’s damn well do this, and show all the bastards who never believed in us otherwise, and feel better and healthier in the process, it’s a no brainer!!

See you all on day 11, Peace, and sombre intoxicated apologies.

Andy  

PS. Thank god for spell check, 200 errors later, and we are clean J