Day 4i

Okay, so today is day 4! Said with a sheer lack of excitement and enthusiasm, I still haven't smoked, and now I’m not really feeling like I want to at all. I do however, feel like total and utter crap, if I felt bad yesterday, then today I feel like total and utter shit. I did think I may blog twice today, once as I have just woken up and all this is fresh in my mind, and again later, to update on progress. Last night I struggled to feel tired, so didn’t go to bed, and had another couple of beers before bed, just as a sleeping aid really, this did help, but I’m beginning to worry I may fall into a pattern of drinking every night. I also have developed a rather bad toothache since yesterday afternoon, which is annoying. I’ve never really had toothache before, so this is all pretty new, and I don’t like it, and struggle to see how, but still wonder, if this is related to my quitting of the smokes.

I’m also trying to post links to this blog all over the show, for people to read, and enjoy, perhaps motivate some to stop, while simply just informing others. This actually really stressed me out, I posted a link in a smoking cessation page in wikipedia, and 2 hours later it was gone, one total dick head had removed it as spam, I quite simply just reposted it, and then now I have Texas' very own wikipedia control freak who keeps removing it, and I keep re-adding, seems pathetic that an old woman will sit there all day and moderate a free encyclopaedia, for no money, just the fact she is a sore loser and needs to get out more is probably the reasons. Still, I will continue the fight against her, but also if any of you do happen to read this then please pass on to others. Pretty sure it may help, or entertain, I just find it offensive that they just remove what could be a really good stop smoking diary and disregard it as shit, whereas I think it may help. Quite clearly the bitch has never smoked, nor given it up.

I also heard a song in the car yesterday, Was from the Tron legacy, and its by daft punk, called End credits, not only does it make me want to see the film, It also takes my mind off smoking and or stress, so this may be my stop smoking anthem. We shall see, I have downloaded it and listened to it a few times, it’s pretty cool.

I don’t really have any plans today, other than washing and ironing etc before my return to work tomorrow. which I am dreading, especially if I feel this ill, if I remain to feel this ill, I may well phone in sick, as work is bad enough, without feeling like this.

Il post again later, let’s hope day 4 remains smoke free too, I’m confident it will, I don’t want to smoke feeling like this. I want to feel better, and wish it wasn’t a long drawn out process of months and years before I feel the benefits.